Currently Listening Vol 3: (The Subliminal Verses) By Slipknot duality see related

It has been awhile...

Wow, where to even begin. Shit keeps getting harder and crazier...

Went to OBX last week with a friend, that was nice to get away for a little and just hang out with her. We got to talk and catch up on everything and that will probably be one of the last times I see her before she goes off to college. The weather kinda sucked down there tho cause it was always raining, but I did get a tan .

Yea, shit before the trip, well, that was just crazy...idk what to even make of all that .

July 4th was alright...got to hang out with Nicole, Veronica, and Stephanie. Thanks again for inviting me to the bbq. Fireworks were cool...we were just a lil late. lol. But after was fun going to DQ . I swear tho, if that guy hit my car...he woulda had it . lol.

Tryin my newest plan, well plans  "we'll see" how they go, lol....learned that family sucks so trust no one.

18 in less that 2 weeks...

~Kate

Havent updated in awhile. Crazy times. lol.

Last week I had two graduations to go too. It was just weird to see everyone that you used to go to school with all the way back in elementary or even middle school and then to see them now...jus crazy how time flys by. Remembering the good times of playing on the playground near that one tree or having our lil fights over stupid shit and playing power rangers. lol. Yea, Im a dork . They did have a good speech at one of them tho that really made me think. They said that change comes and goes, but change is necessary. Very true...

Justines 18th birthday was also last week. That was fun. Went out to The Cheesecake Factory and had fun backacking and dancing around in the BMW to the loud music. lol. Good times. That guy was hot tho outside . Happy bday Jus!

The weekend was...interesting. lol. Got to see a childhood friend on Saturday. That was pretty cool. Hung out and I got to hang out with his sister. She even made me a lil picture that says "I like you". Yea, it just melts my heart. lol. Nice seeing them again tho.

I got to babysit again this week. It was nice seeing them and catching up with stuff. I hadnt seen them for awhile, actuslly a really long time. I went to one of their graduation from kindergarden yesterday and that was jus really cute. But we got to go swimming after and I got a nice sunburn. lol. Yes, I feel like a tomato .

Nicole...were gonna make it and its soo not over yet...this is soo war so put on the concelor! lol. Its soo not over and remember dont give up . I really hope everything works out.

Well something else broke...this sucks. lol. Got it fixed tho after our basement was flooded. Yea, that means alot of cleaning . We got to see our landlord again tho, hes awesome. I also got to finally meet our neighbors and I hang out with Ashley now...shes cool. It was nice to finally meet her and know somebody in the neighborhood. lol. But we went driving tonight and talked about the usual girl stuff....

Last week was my last day of work...that was nice. I miss some of the people tho, but it was nice to finally walk out of there and know that I dont ever have to walk back in there again and work. I actually went in there the day after I was done, lol, and I got to see everybody again, it was awesome. Yes, Im famous there Lauren. lol.

Few days to the party...Im jus hoping everything works out...I wanna have some fun

Some people really piss me off...

~Kate

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Its June! Summers almost here .

With school ending soon, just thinking back to how things were back when we were in elementary school or just even a few years ago...its just soo not how you woulda expected stuff to be. Its crazy. I dont really know how I feel about it ending and maybe just try not to think about it...

Im at the point right now that its just like "fuck it"...I cant take some people and their bullshit. Im going to do what I want and I dont care who likes it. And yea, the things I said about boys still stands correct, so dont "uhh" me . lol.

I quit my job in less than a week. Im gonna miss some of those people. Their great .

Tonight went out to TGIF for Nicoles 18th birthday. That was cool...it ended up some of her family were just 2 seats down from where we were. Then after that we went to Dairy Queen...and yea ...we did it Nicole! Good job! . One down...one to go .

This summer is going to be crazy...with the moving, concerts, trips, and everything I want to do...I just hope everything works out .

Party in 2 weeks

Happy 18th Birthday Nicole! Yea, "thats hot" lol.

~Kate

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Mays almost over...

Finally finished my senior project and got a 95 .

Already handed my notice in to quit my job in like two weeks ...which I guess its mixed feelings.

Last weekend was fun, thanks Chris again.

Right now, Nicole and I are in NC. Its freakin hot down here . The car ride down was nice...got to catch up with alot of GTS. lol. Got here at like 1 and started hunt...the mosquito hawk hunt . Good times.

Just looking back at May, like we both said yesterday, there was not one dull moment. The whole month was packed with some kind of craziness of some sort. I remember just last year, being here and how much things have changed; how much I have changed, and knowing all the anticipated plans for the summer...its gonna be crazy...

P.S. I feel like a pita wrap

O yea...Nicoles B-day is like in 6 days

~Kate

 Wow...these past weeks have just left me speechless and very confused with...well, everything

What the hell is even going on anymore???

The Papa Roach concert was AWESOME! Yea Nicole, jus wow. lol . The opening acts were No Warning and Trust Company. I think the security was a lil much tho, fuckin assholes taking our pens and water bottles . When Papa Roach came out, that was just completely awesome. Moshin and crowd surfing were great . Very cool people there. I really want to go see them again in concert sometime. I really needed that night tho, just really cool. I swear tho, the people in the back needed to be a lil more energenic...they were very shitty . lol. C'mon people, where the hell was your energy??? We got back there and were jumpin and screamin and they just looked at us like "wtf?" . lol. Whatever.... After that we went to hang out with a friend of mine and there friends and we got to meet some of the bands, get stuff signed, and hang out. "The little man, the little man"...good times . We got a a picture with the drummer of Papa Roach. I also got alot of pictures of all the bands when they were preforming too, and since we were really close, they came out pretty good . Then we had to leave...it was like 2 in the morning and right as were walking past The Electric Factory, Jacoby walks out of the building. I run up to him and ask for a picture. He wanted us to party with him, which woulda been awesome, but we had to go, lol. But the picture came out really good . On the way home, we felt like such crackheads . Got back and went to bed after some interesting news . lol.

Woke up the next mornin at like 7:30, still feeling like a crackhead and tired. Got ready and I went to take the drivers test. I started messing up really bad in the begining with the parallel parking, but once he talked me through it, I got it . Nicole came with me to, that so that was awesome.

I hung out with friends that day. That was fun and it was a AWESOME day . The whole day was crazy and busy and ended with the cops pulling my friend and I over twice because of tail gating, speeding, and the headlights not being on . The dude was goin to slow anyways. lol.

Sunday morning, I had to go to my cousin confirmation. That was cool, but I just had alot to think about with the weekend ending . Went out to lunch and got to hang out with Emily. Of course my aunt started shit, so of course I argued back .

Later that day I got some news that was a lil shocking and that jus started the whole crazy next week...

Last week was just very draining and overwhemling . I was hardly at work because I was getting sick and trying to help a friend. It just seemed like everything was going wrong and nothing could ever be right or okay again. I dont know what to say anymore honestly .

My senior project was due on Friday but we all know that didnt happen. Im almost done and Im apparently supposed to talk to the teacher on the phone tomorrow about it. So hopefully I can get that done and handled.

School is getting caught up, slowly. lol. I only have a few more weeks left...I really need to get more done in a day .

I finally met my next door neighbors this past weekend. That was really cool. There really nice.

 I got a chance to see Mrs. G yesterday. I hadnt seen her for awhile with everything going on. I brought her some flowers and she really liked them. I told her the "lastest news". lol. Then I almost fell asleep in her chair, I was just soo fuckin tired.

Right now Im at a point that everything is just coming up soo fast and Im going to have to just go with the flow...I usually hate doing that, but it can be a good thing sometimes. I really want to start writing more...it just helps a lil.

~Kate

Papa Roach

Scars

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed 'cause you came around
Why don't you just go home?
'Cause I channeled all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is...

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
And my weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shoulda' never come around
Why don't you just go home?
'Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand

Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life